Sometimes, I get frustrated at myself because I tend to run out of steam. I have great ambitions after a good nights sleep (which are rare) and plan a "to do" list when I arise. However, as the day proceeds my great plans fizzle out as does my energy.
I may only accomplish 2 out of my 6 items on that unrealistic list.
A sence of uselessness overwelms me and casts me into the sea of gloom. I guess the easy solution is don’t make plans and don’t compose a “to do” list. Or I could be perfectly satisfied with what I do accomplish and finish my list on another day.
I do the things that I have to do and want to do, but if I have to use a nano second of energy and/or brain power for other projects, I just seem to hit a wall. My couch beckons me to lie down as it consumes me like a cocoon. The TV controllers magically find their way into my hands with such ease. I then go into a catatonic state of TV binging.
Where did that phrase come from?
It perfectly describes the act. Then, I have to force myself to prepare an actual meal on those days and I end the day, mourning the time that I lost do to inactivity.
Today was one of those days. I did go for a 2 mile walk, showered, read the Bible and went to visit Sharon at the senior home to do her nails. Then came home to eat and care for mom.
I am forcing myself to write this blog because I do get pleasure from expressing myself. When I write, I feel as though I am accomplishing something, that may actually help someone that shares my feelings. I am learning to allow myself to relax on these kind of days, not to condemn myself and realize that tomorrow will be a new day, with a new morning, and new opportunities.
I am so thankful that God does not measure my worth or usefulness by how many tasks or good deeds I do.I don’t deserve His blessings but He gives them freely. His mercies are new every day.
I am loved and blessed on my good days and on my bad days, when I’m productive and when Im not, when I complete my “to do” list and even when I don't.
I am of all women blessed and highly favored.
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Well said Carletta. We must be willing to accept every season of life. I am right there with you, trusting God to help me live for Him each and every day!