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Carletta's Calling

carwoerner7

Updated: Aug 19, 2022


From birth to death-

From diapers to depends-

From childhood to adulthood-

From kindergarten to Master’s degree-

From working to retirement-

From marriage to divorce or death-

From caring for children to be cared for by your children-

From a sound mind to dementia or worse-

From falling down as a toddler learning to walk to falling down from an unsteady gate-

From thinking for yourself to having someone else think for you-

John 21:18

My mom is 96 years young and has journeyed through each one of these seasons in "the Circle of her Life."

My heart aches as I care for her and observe her surrendering to each new season.

She has now grown accustomed to acceptance and compliance.

Mom has figuritivey waved the white flag of surrender that ended her battle to regain her independence.

She can still be a little Italian spit fire of a woman when her feathers get ruffled but for the most part my mom is now easy to care for. She eats anything I put in front of her, still dresses herself, participates (for the most part) in the activities of daily living for herself, can see and sometimes she can hear me, can still communicate and still knows who I am.

She occupies the large majority of her days off of day care by sleeping and coloring. She can color for hours and giggles at her masterpiece as she diligently turns a colorless drawing into her own creation. She is very proud of her art work!



She seems happy and feels loved and cared for and is always greatful for everything.

Mom was a professional manicurist most of her life and never had the pleasure of having long beautiful nails, but now, every 6 weeks she gets pampered with a maniure and once a month we go to massage envy for a well deserved and delightfully relaxing massage.

I often wonder, if she is their oldest client!


Caring for mom hasn't always been easy and there are days of frustration for both of us but mom is a happy lady, proud lady, a beautiful lady, a gracious and sweet lady.

I am blessed to have her still here with me. She tells me she wants to live to be 100! So far she is doing great and seems as though, she just might accomplish that feat.

I pray that God will give me the love, compassion, kindness, gentleness

and wisdom I need to continue to care for her as she deserves.

Until God calls her home.

From this world and this life to her heavenly home and her eternal life...


To care for those who once cared for us is one of the highest honors. Tia Walker

Www.Mymarymartha.com/26206


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carwoerner7

Updated: Dec 9, 2021




I never could understand the fascination that my daughter had with doing puzzles. Once she got started on one, she was obsessed with it till it was finished. She would ask me to join her in this adventure but to me, it was torture. I would rather pull my hair out than to stare all day at those misshaped forms. I would finally pick up two pieces, that I just knew, were a match only to discover that the only way they meshed was if I smashed them together. My daughter would just look at me, grimace and laugh. She knew I was a hopeless case.



Since I was a disaster at assembling puzzles, I don't know why I thought I could remotely orchestrate my life on my own. The video clip above makes me think that the hands are God's hands. He is trying to put my life together and I'm that pesky bird disrupting His perfect picture.


Everything that has occurred in my life has been a well planned out piece of my puzzle. One piece fitting perfectly into the next; each section vital for the remaining picture to be completed.


There have been times, that I tried to push my own puzzle pieces together even though they obviously didn't match up. I thought, I knew what was best for me. I tried to view my future from MY perspective. However, I don't have the panoramic view of my life as God does.


I can only see the here and now. He saw my beginning, and my past. He also knows my present, future, and my eternity. He has a plan and a purpose for my life to give me a future and a hope.

He wants the best for me. I don't always know "what the best for me" is, but He does.


So when unexpected and undesirable events happen in my life; I am learning that the picture on the box of my life's puzzle is taking on the shape; that He is designing. I wait and watch to see the glorious plan that He is constructing for me. His design for my cover picture on my puzzle box has always been so much better than what my "will" for my life could have been.


Do I want to be the hands to organize the events in my life or do I want the One who knows and sees everything; to be the Master puzzle designer? My will or His will?


How about you? Your will or His will?


Psalm 138:8 The Lord will perfect that which concerns me. (Amplified Bible)




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carwoerner7

Updated: Feb 25, 2021



2/16/21

Ever since I was a child I loved rainy days. Maybe, because my mother did. I remember when we were in the car after an outing and there was a nice steady rainfall, my mom was never in a hurry to go inside. We would just sit in the car enjoying the sound of the thunder and the rain drops hitting the roof of our car. Those were fond, calming memories for me.


I also enjoyed the rumbling of the thunder and the silver streaks of lighting crackling as they made an entrance into the sky. I think of it as God's "rain show" that He performs for me.

My friends know my love of rainy days, so when it does pour it make them think of me and say, "Carletta must be happy today." and they would be right.


This morning, we had a heavy shower and I got some disturbing news that my daughter and son in law both have pneumonia from covid. My daughter is in the hospital and my son in law is at home alone.


Do you know how that tears at a mother's heart? Can you feel me- mother's/father's? Not only are they both sick but I can't even visit or help nurse them back to health. They don't feel like talking and are so tired they just want to sleep.


I have to keep my mind lifted up and believe that God is with them; healing and holding them, as only He can do. All I can do is pray. I know that is the best treatment and I can do it, any time, any where and in any manner that I choose.


So when the heavens opened up their windows and doors and spewed out that awesome shower today; I felt like God saw my mother's heart. He heard my prayers and the prayers of my friends and their friends. I felt like He was crying with me letting me know- He cares too. He collected our tears and emptied them down on me.

I am strong and maintaining a calm spirit because I know my God is on the job. He is in control. He sees me, Dana and Dave. He cares and He is taking care of them with out my help.

I surrender my control to the one who has the power to heal. So reign down on us all O Lord!

So Reign/ Rain ON!

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